Open doors, closed doors
10 Jan 2008 1 Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: career opportunities, God
I had this opportunity kind of land in my lap. One of those things, that you just think is so cool, and gosh just want to jump at it. Despite a baby question mark in my belly I jumped, leaped and held on. Its not that the opportunity was bad it was just a matter of is this the right time? As one of my one really good friends says, “We lose everything if we act in our own time and not God’s” (He said that on Tuesday, and immediately I was like thats something to live by)
As with things like this, even when you leap you kind of need someone to call you back, and when they did, I rearranged, replaced, erased things off my calendar to make myself available, still with a little bit of unrest. Oh the things you can do when you are convinced of your future.
Today, with what happens next looming, I took a look at my calendar, and said, gosh this doesn’t feel right. Now as a girl with great discernment, I never really second guess my gift. But I had 3rd, 4th and 5th ignored, what I know to be the same thing inside of me that speaks words of healing, words of believing, words of grace. So I do what every girl in my position would do. I IM’d my sister, hoping it would give me some peace, some sort of whoosh of that’s okay. Still it didn’t.
So while I was washing my hands in the bathroom (like all people should) I felt inside of me- Would I go without peace? Surely not! I know what happens when I ignore this. I end up two months later saying I should have listened to that still small voice.
So I canceled, what some might call the opportunity of a lifetime. It could have been a test. The hand of God could keep the door open for me, who knows. But I have peace knowing that I would trade an opportunity of a lifetime for a lifetime of opportunities.
I am humbled. That God loves me this much.
