The Grace Race
02 Feb 2008 Leave a Comment
in Uncategorized Tags: admin, God, grace, jobs, prayer, work
I got a new job! Have I told you that? I HAVE!! Its a great job…at a place that if I may say so “I’m feeling lucky” to work at. Have you guessed it yet? If you haven’t maybe you can search me on the web…have you ever “Googled” anyone? 
My God, my God is so faithful. You know when people say that sometimes and say I just can’t tell it all? I really cannot tell it all. The depths of His goodness to me, is astounding. How You know me, how You love me. Why do You sometimes I want to ask? Why?! But He just does and He is so GOOD to me.
When I took the admin position at my current job, I was uncertain. I did not know Microsoft Outlook as well as they needed me to. I knew youth ministry. I knew how to get kids saved, pray for them, spend time with them. That was all I knew, and all I ever thought I was going to do. So when the Lord told me it was time to go, and I went, I prayed God let there be an assignment for me here. How do you leave a job so full of your own passion, and your dreams and go to a job that you feel is just a paycheck?
But gosh the people were easy to fall in love with. Soon they became my passion. Iremembered that the reason I wanted to make a difference in this world was to see people changed by the love of God. It had been years since I just made friends for the sake of friendship, had conversations without any opening for counseling. I began to see the value in me, and the Jesus in me without saying a word. Then my aunt died, and I felt like I was of no use to anyone. I would come into work, barely hanging on. Without knowing it the people here showed me real love, they never rushed me to heal, or rushed me to get back to work. I feel like I learned the meaning of God’s love here. The way that Jesus felt the heart of the Father when He spent time with the lost. I think you can spend so much time in church that you judge the lost. You say, things like well what can you do, they’re lost? We think that being lost is a blockade to God’s love. But we forget that He loved us when we were yet sinners and it was that love that transformed us.
If you are saved and reading this, and you think back to your salvation experience, you will remember at least one person, that saw you, really saw you- and chose to love you because He loves you. If you remember that far back you will also remember it was not words of condemnation, but words of encouragement and love, that lead you to the great place you are today.
I have prayed prayers without them knowing it. That has been the greatest lesson of all. I have learned a portion of the way the Lord loves us sometimes without , yet He does it anyway,not for credit but hoping one day, we will understand the value of His love and love others with it. I have never wanted credit for my love or my prayers. I just do it because I know no other way to love them but this way.
Imagine my surprise when I gave my notice this week, I receieved dozens of emails, and phone calls saying what a difference I have made. Truly, I feel like I have not been a spectacular admin. I have messed things up, forgotten things. I have loved them, and that has made all the difference. I knew it was the Lord showing me, that there was an assignment here after all, just not the kind I thought there was. I thought I was going to save people, baptize them in the Spirit in a conference room or something.
I have seen the move of the love of a Father desperate for His children to see the goodness of the life He provides. A woman I work with that I was instantly knit with, that has had several miscarriages, and was told it might not be possible to carry to term- just told me today she is pregnant. Another woman, opened up to me today about her daughter- she said I don’t know why I am telling you this. I know, I know the power of our Father that loves us deeply, awesomely, gloriously-loves us so much when we don’t even know Him.
My God- you rock!
